No Pushing or Shoving Required

Several weeks ago I met a woman from India. We had a great discussion on spirituality, specifically on death and dying. She said if we understood our purpose here on this earth we would not be afraid to die. She stated I read a book a few years back, and it changed my life. She inquired, have you ever read the Celestine Prophecy? I said, I have, but it was a few years ago. I decided if a woman who I have never met suggests that I read a book at this particular time and space maybe it’s worth picking up again.

I started looking for the book. A few people told me that I was not going to find the book here, I would need to order it online. Several weeks went by, and I still hadn’t found the book nor had I ordered it.

Yesterday I was invited to an Organic Fair. Yippee, I thought, I have been looking all over for something like this. There were vendors marketing Gluten free products, soaps, oils, yoga clothes and Kombucha. Yes even in Jakarta. Shame on me for thinking it wasn’t possible to land such riches. There were also workshops on sustainable living, cooking, music therapy and others. One of the workshops I attended was given by a Japenese Dr., who practices alternative medicine. His presentation was demonstrating a technique that assists individuals in bringing circulation of energy, fluids, oxygen and blood back into the neocortex. He explained a lack of these elements occur when we are under stress.

After his presentation, he announced he had a few books he was gifting people. He looked at me and said I have a few books on pregnancy, but I feel called to give you this one. He put it in my hand; I gasped, it’s the Celestine Prophecy!
(Thank God it was not a book on pregnancy)

I smile when I think of the journey this book made. It traveled all the way around the world to find its place in my hands. It started in India, traveled to Japan and then to Indonesia to be given to me, an American girl:)

I invite you to set your intentions and then allow the process to unfold. There is no pushing or shoving required, and it’s great entertainment.

Kickin’ up some Dust

I remember once several years ago going through a huge transformational shift. I scheduled a massage with Sabrina Channel. (Check her out if you are in the area. http://www.channelsofhealing.com She is an amazing practitioner.) I asked her, what is going on with my body? She said, Trina, you have gone through tremendous growth in the past few months. Your ego doesn’t like not having control. Hence the pain you are experiencing.

Here I am again, in the middle of a huge shift in consciousness. For the last three months, I have been trying to get my body back to a homeostatic place. I am down to 108 lbs. The smallest I have ever been in my adult life. The symptoms have taken their toll on me physically. I just went in for a plethora of blood tests.

The culprit is not unknown. The culprit is resistance. Most importantly the fear of change. Change in every aspect of my life. I have made a vow of acceptance with myself that, what I am experiencing is temporary but the outcome is life changing. I have talked about my changes throughout my blog, so these are not unknown to you as my readers. Most of what you may have interpreted are the physical changes, regarding the landscape of my journey. What I am  unearthing is organic to say the least. I am stepping into a new dimension of myself; I love who I see looking back at me in the mirror.

I am choosing to let go of what lies beyond the familiar landscape of my past. I have been, up until now, a planner. I am stepping into the unknown. Totally trusting a power much great than myself to guide me is something I have never done. I know this is a great deal of what I am resisting. People have asked me what are you doing after your term in Jakarta? At this point, it has not yet been made known to me.

So why have I chosen to post about this? If your soul is calling you forward, remember this. The ego dislikes being uncomfortable.  It will try and coerce you back to what is familiar.   I know beyond a shadow of a doubt, I made the right decision taking this assignment. This assignment was much more than a job. No matter my ego’s perception of the perceived challenges, this has been a catalyst for my soul’s work in progress.  My soul received a call I chose not to ignore and it was the best decision I ever made. I will continue to keep you posted as my path unfolds.

It has been a turbocharged year of change and personal growth. All is well…this much I know is true. A power much greater than myself told me so.